Chapter 101: 101 Path

Some gossiped, some criticised, some kept quiet, some pretended nothing's going on, some really came to me and asked, "Why?"

I really think that this is a good choice. I started to pack my things slowly. Day by day, as I was rushing the assignments in my room, I was thinking time is flying fast.

So I know time is precious, I cannot afford to lose my time to pursue on my goal. I will need to fulfill it in my life. Though people say it is personal, I would say my personal thing is for Glory of God.



As I looked out of the window, I saw the people running past the carpark, which is in front of the Wisma Anglican. I saw some pastors busy walking here and there, even some of the full time staffs walking in fast pace to prepare something. In my mind, I thought, "Fellows, take care..."

I also received a phone call, "Jack, this is such a shock to hear that you are going to quit full time job. How am I going to meet you in the future?"

During the youth cell, I said to my cell members, "I have an announcement to make. 31 October will be my last Saturday in the youth ministry." The youth were shocked especially the youth leaders who are teaming up with me.

Some youth secretly said to me "After you leave the youth, who am I going to share my problem to...?"

These are really true friends. Seriously speaking, those who really care and approach you are the ones who really appreciate your hardwork.



Yeah... True friends you must cherish...

Remembering that is only 101 path for every individual one. Who really knows what to choose for you? Only God shows you the way which you need to accomplish. Do you choose it carefully? Remember this is your destiny. A journey with God will never end.

Psalms 17:5
"My steps have held to your paths; my feet have not slipped."

Chapter 90: Forever You Reign

This song "Forever You Reign" is made for my God, my Savior. I wanna share this with my readers, to let them know that the song is ultimately inspired by God Himself.

On 12 September 2009, in the Youth Live Concert, this song will be placed at the last. I do hope everyone who comes to the concert will enjoy the presence of God, and the touching of Holy Spirit.

My life and my all are in God's hand. My life is unworthy, yet God still uses me for His kingdom. God reigns in my life. He will forever be my God.

Therefore, one day, when I was resting on my bed, I saw a picture in my mind which many people were bowing down before God, calling out with all their strength "You're my God! You're my God!"

All Creations around God were praising Him for His mighty work. The voice of praise was so loud that it was blended into one voice. As the creations were praising God, the fear of God became to grow deeper and stronger. Naturally, everyone raised up both hands and declare that Jesus reigns forever. When I see the people of God were fearing His Name, I began to fear even more.

When I fear God, I could not do anything, but to raise up my hands and agreedly saying, "You're my God! You're my God! Jesus! Forever You reign!"


God, I love to worship You. And I wanna worship You for the rest of my days. Though my life is broken, yet You won't despise it and take it all. Therefore, God, do not forsake me and have mercy upon me.

Use me in Your kingdom and glorify Your Holy Name.

Revelation 19:6
"Then I heard what sounded like a great multitude, like the roar of rushing waters and like loud peals of thunder, shouting: "Hallelujah! For our Lord God Almighty reigns."

** Please note that I am not a prophet. This is not a prophency or special revelation. Please do not think I am trying to make myself special. I am only composing a song which I can imagine all people fearing His name.


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Forever You Reign
Melody and Lyrics composed by: Jack's Stuff

Verse 1:
Mighty God, the world is in Your hand
Every knee shall bow down in Your name
You are God who deserves all our praise
Here we are, our sacrifice of praise

Pre-Chorus:
All the heavens and the earth
tremble and fear Your name
There is no one else like You, for You are great

Chorus:
All Creations shout Your praise
As we lift our hands, declare Your name
You’re my God, You’re my God
Jesus, forever You reign

Verse 2:
Who am I? Not worthy of Your grace
My broken life, You won’t despise and take
I once was lost, You bring me back again
Use my life for the glory of Your name

Chapter 85: 800 more

I am so shocked that 320 cards were all distributed. And the youths were demanding for more. Praise the Lord!

Last Saturday, I went on stage to mobilize the Youth Live Concert again. I raised all the invitation cards and posters and said, "See what we have right now!"

The whole youth rejoiced and shouted "YEAH!"
And then I asked who could help to stick the posters in the school. I brought five copies of posters. Who knows...? Many youths volunteered to put the posters in school. After giving all out, I was short of six copies!! WOW! I was impressed by their enthusiasm. God, Thank You!

And the invitation cards were not enough. 320 pieces were given out only to ASC. What about other churches? There are at least ten other Anglican churches out there! If each one has 50 cards, it will sum up to 500 cards at least!! The ASC Young Adults will take another 50 cards. The Sunday Service Information desks will have 50 tickets. The Children cell will help giving out another 50 cards. The ASC youths still demand for 150 more cards!!

Altogether,
800 more cards!!



God, thank you! I can sense the revival coming! The Youth Ministry will be revived by You once again! Hallelujah!

Though I need to print 100 pieces and cut them into 800 pieces, it is worthy! Though it will consume my time cutting all the cards, it is ok. It is because I know I am doing this for my God, Jesus Christ! I will definitely let this concert happen in a glorious way!

1 Corinthians 8:17
"For Titus not only welcomed our appeal, but he is coming to you with much enthusiasm and on his own initiative."

I was touched by Ian Chhao (like Titus) when he said, "Jack, I am so sorry that I troubled you so much for the extra posters."

I said, "No. I am encouraged. Seeing you all so excited about the concert, has already motivated me to move even stronger."

Chapter 84: Cutting The Cards.

Everyone was preparing for the SOMA conference. I saw the people in the office were doing all sorts of things. I know that it is never easy to host a big event. All different nations will gather in ASC on 13 August 2009. It will be approximately 300 participants.

At that busy moment, the posters of “Youth Live Concert” had arrived. I was filled with joy. I know that the youths are looking forward for the concert. Some even came to me last week, asking me for the posters and the invitation cards. Due to the SOMA conference, I must give the priority to those who were preparing for it. It passed from Monday to Thursday, they had been rushing their work. Therefore, no matter what I must finish printing all the invitation cards by yesterday (Friday). Looking at the time, it showed 5:50PM. I went to ask Michelle, at the same time, feeling sad for her stress and busyness “Michelle, when can I use your computer to print the invitation cards?”

“6PM…” Smiling at me, she said, “I will finish my work at 6PM.”

Naughty Michelle
After printing the invitation cards, it was already 6:30PM. Then I remembered that I promised the youth to give them the cards by today (Saturday). If I start to cut the invitation cards today, it will be too late, because it will clash with the work of Sunday bulletins. I said, “Well, I know everyone will be busy tomorrow. I will do the cutting myself now. It will save everyone trouble and it will edify the whole youth ministry.” (laughing)

I stayed in the office, searching for a penknife and a metal ruler, sitting in front of the table with a glass on top of it. Cutting the cards, thinking in my mind, “God, thank You for letting this concert happened. I can’t wait for it.”


Taking my time, cutting the cards into 320 pieces. I did not know why I felt joyful in my heart. I believe that must be something which I want to do for my God. It is worthwhile for me to do this for the concert. No matter what, I will glorify God in this concert. Glorify Thy Name!

I believe the youths will receive the posters and cards with excitement and joy today. Just by wondering how their expression will be, it has already motivated me more to cut all the cards.

When I finished all the work, it was about 8PM.

Colossians 1:11
"being strengthened with all power according to his glorious might so that you may have great endurance and patience, and joyfully"

Chapter 42: Please God or Men?

Continued from Chapter 41: Unacceptable Attitude

Readers, if you were me, can you stand those arrogant boys’ attitude? Do you feel disappointed when those people disrespect our God and show no reverence to our God?

On the same night, while I was helping out the Adult Alpha Course, there was an aunt asking me curiously, “Jack, why are you so fierce and strict to ASAA students? Are you scared actually?”

WHAT THE...? I'm scared?

Adult Alpha Course
Normally, when a person speaks loudly in public, it is because he wants to overcome his fear towards the people. However, this aunt got it all wrong. Am I scared?

Absolutely NO!!

Those, who are close to me, should know that I am not welcomed by many. I do not even care about my reputation especially when it comes to a stage where I have to stand firm in the presence of God. Am I here to please God or please men?

Galatians 1:10
"Am I now trying to win the approval of men, or of God? Or am I trying to please men? If I were still trying to please men, I would not be a servant of Christ."

That aunt, acting like a teacher, continued to said, “Jack, you should not speak so loudly. You should speak gently to those students. You will scare them away. These students are different. You need to deal them with love, gentleness and softness.”

I forgave her for she did not know the whole situation. Deal with gentleness and softness? Come on, man!
Are they still babies? Need me to spoon-feed them? It is because they are different, so I should rebuke them seriously. Even the Junior students are better than them.

ASAA Junior Students
Did she know that the senior students were sleeping while I was mobilizing Youth Alpha? Am I supposed to say gently, "Hello, everyone. Please wake up. Listen to me, please."

This is NOT CHILDREN CELL.

When I spoke loudly to them, does it mean I don’t love them? Indeed, it will not affect my emotion even if there are only 2 persons who attend the Youth Alpha. My task is to share the gospel. Even if there are only 2 persons, I will still share the gospel wholeheartedly.

Do you think I will feel very down and upset because the attendance is only 2 persons?

Of course not!

Think carefully!! If only 2 persons came to Youth Alpha, this shows that the Favor of God falls on these 2 persons.

How blessed are
those who hear and receive the gospels sincerely.

When you met this kind of situation and you know you will waste your time explaining the whole program (because you know they will not listen), is it wrong to speak loudly to get their attention?
I teach you!! If you face this in future, you should give them a strong and powerful rebuke.

To me, I have done my part sincerely. I, as a servant of God, represent God to promote His word (Youth Alpha) to people. Now who’s not listening? Can I control their mind? Even in the Old Testament, the prophets scolded and rebuked the people, do you think they will be welcomed by the people? Do you think they are loved by people? Do you think the people listen? When the prophets scolded and rebuked the people, does it mean they did not love the people?


Readers, Who likes to be scolded and rebuked by me? No one likes it! In fact, this is my true love to them. I tell you the truth. If I do not even rebuke those senior students, it means I do not care about their salvation. If they come to Youth Alpha, I will surely take it seriously to share the gospel to them.

Chapter 41: Unacceptable attitude

On 30 March 2009, at 8am in the morning, I went to ASAA (All Saints Anglican Academy) to mobilize the Youth Alpha.


Before I shared about Youth Alpha, Roy was sharing Word of God first. At first, I was enjoying his interesting sharing... I was actually quite glad that the junior students were interacting with Roy. As I started to look at the senior students, to my surprise, they were not listening to the Word!!

Some slept; some gave “cool” face as if they were very smart; some gave bitter faces to show that it was boring. I even saw some students coming late for the ASAA assembly. As the principal asked them, “Why are you late?” they did not even bother to look at her. They continued their way to the empty seats.

What kind of attitude is this?
(I wish I could shoot video about the real situation...)

I asked someone who was sitting besides me, “Why are these boys acting so arrogantly? They show no respect at all. They even sleep during the time of Word.”

He, without hesitation, replied, “These boys are rich people. They are very proud. They have no reverence for God. They have no fear in teachers.”

In panic, I thought, “Will they come to the Youth Alpha? This is just a waste of time. While I mobilize the Youth Alpha, they will definitely sleep and show no respect to me!!”

“I doubt they will listen.” He, hopelessly, spoke again.

God, since they are so arrogant, I might as well use this chance to rebuke them. I think this will be my only chance to mobilize the Youth Alpha in ASAA. I doubt they will join the Youth Alpha. God, since they have this kind of unacceptable attitude, I will not expect them to come too. Let me presume that there will be no ASAA students joining the Youth Alpha.

God, Your will be done.
If they want to come, let them come.
If they do not want to come, let it be.

When it came to my turn to share the youth alpha, as I expected, they really fell asleep. Some turned their face to ignore what I was saying. Suddenly I shouted in a strict and stern voice, in a sharp and straight tone.

“Listen! You rich people! Your life is not about money only! If you do not come to this Youth Alpha, you miss one of the best part in your life. Challenge me! I will wait for you.”

There was a complete silence – everyone was looking at me in astonishment. (Maybe the Senior students were annoyed and think, “Who do you think you are?” Kinda hate me, ya?)

“I am serious…” I strongly spoke, my eyes looked directly at them.

Proverbs 1: 29, 31 - 32
"Since they hated knowledge and did not choose to fear the LORD, they will eat the fruit of their ways and be filled with the fruit of their schemes.
For the waywardness of the simple will kill them, and the complacency of fools will destroy them;"

ASAA Teachers, I really appreciate all your hard efforts and love on these Senior students. Besides that, I like the Junior Students.

Keep up the good work, fellows.



To be continued