Chapter 108: Beginning of New Journey

Last night, Jonathan Tse, my buddy called me out for supper. We had our supper in Lido market at 1:30am. There were many people buying supper. I was thinking that this is extremely crazy because the food stall opened from 1am to 6am. What kind of stall is that? Yet many people went there for supper.

As we were eating, We discussed how our future plan gonna be. We might become working partner in future if God willing. I really knew that the life outside is much challenging, yet very fun. I like this challenge. I will continue on my fun journey with God.


Before supper, He brought me to his house where he does sound recording for a living. This guy is a talented person with full of zeal. As both of us talked about God's plan, we individually have our own view to do more for God's kingdom. He indeed is a good partner to work with. He showed me some of his songs. I find it decent. It was comfortable when I heard it. His new album "I'm alive" is about God. I was really encouraged that he continued to strike the best for God even when he was outside. Anyway, do support him. This is his link - Jonathan's Blogspot

When one is clear of what God has called him to do, he will continue on the fire in his heart. God has shown us His vision, that is why we know what we are doing.

At the beginning of new journey, everyone will face hardship and difficulty in life because everything is like starting all over again. Once we overcome the first hardest stage, we will continue to triumph over our foes in Christ.

God, bless the work of our hands.

Psalms 118:7
"The LORD is with me; he is my helper. I will look in triumph on my enemies."

Chapter 107: Nokia 5530

Searching for a present in Centerpoint, took me whole day...

As I was walking past a video shop called Speedy Video, I saw the TV were showing "Tranformers 2". Naturally, I stopped by and watched the scene which Optimus Prime was about to get killed. Then suddenly there was a guy besides me, trying to get my attention, "Hey!"

My eyes turned to him and he was pulling something from his pocket. I stepped back, and get a bit panic. Then he showed me...

Nokia 5530



I was pretty surprised why he showed me this cell phone. Then he was asking whether I wanna buy it. Obviously, I shook my head and turned back to the TV screen again.

Then, I immediately thought of theft! That guy was a thief! I remembered the Nokia 5530 was already used and was the latest model in the market. How did this cell phone come to him? Why did he sell this cell phone away if he bought it at first? Even if it was not nice to use, did he need to find strangers to sell his phone away? He should trade his phone into the shop. If he was working for a cell phone company, he supposed to work in the shop. But he was just standing there and ask people one by one whether the others would buy or not. Very logically he was a thief! However, what can I do? He was standing just besides me, and I had no evidence to prove that he was a thief.

In my mind, I thought, "Who is the victim? Whose cell phone was stolen?"


Now then I know that the thieves, once they steal your cell phone, will immediately look for the people around the mall for trade. This is very dangerous. I just want to say that keep your property safe. Nowadays, the thieves are getting more and more cunning. They can stand in front of you without fear. Your treasures will be vanished within seconds when you are not alert.

God also teaches us to store our treasures in Heaven because the treasures in Heaven will not be lost. Forever, the thieves will not steal it. I believe you know what I am trying to say. Readers, worship God and do His will.

Oh God, have mercy on these thieves. Make them turn back to you and repent.

Matthew 6:19
"Do not store up for yourselves treasures on earth, where moth and rust destroy, and where thieves break in and steal."

Chapter 106: Farewell

I wanna specially thank Roy for organizing this farewell party for me. That was an unforgettable evening for me. We had lots of fun and laughters. After that, it came to a time when everyone wrote something about me.

First impression:
red face, funny, cool, gay, yeng, nice, friendly, handsome, youtube, cwalk, singer, photographer, talented, "Oh?! This is Jack's Stuff?" etc...

What had I done in their life:
Trustworthy, caring, friendly, heng dai (Buddy in cantonese), "You light up my life.", "Where is my Jack's Stuff T-Shirt?", "Still the same cool Jack's Stuff!", etc...

The most touching note:
"Jack, we will always miss you and love you. You must take care when you are outside. Thanks for your love and care. Always be the handsome Jack."

The most touching thing:
Natalie's cheesecake (The crust is NICE oh! Thanks Natalie for putting hard efforts on it.)

All these memories are very valuable to me. I will continue on my journey outside to face the world. Let the world know about Jesus Christ.

My farewell speech to the ASC Youths:
"Thanks, everyone. I really appreciate the party tonight. However, tonight I am not going to talk about me. I wanna tell you what the important thing you need to know. My leaving is not important. It is the leaders and the interns who stay and continue on the youth ministry are the important ones. You are blessed by God and those leaders and interns. They love you very much. Do you know before every youth ministry starts, the leaders and interns have been praying for all of you? Remember them for life. And honor your leaders and interns. Cherish them. Continue to work with them. And raise yourself up as a leader. Give glory to God."










1 Chronicles 29:9
"The people rejoiced at the willing response of their leaders, for they had given freely and wholeheartedly to the LORD. David the king also rejoiced greatly."

Chapter 105: An Old Lady

Yesterday, I was studying in McDonald, Api Api Center. I was doing my final assignment - New Testament.

Then there was an old lady who walked past me. "She was bent over and could not straighten up at all." (Luke 13:11) I immediately recalled on the sermon which Rev Yong had preached on one of the Sunday services. It was about the woman who had been crippled by a spirit for eighteen years. I was not sure whether this old lady whom I met in McDonald was crippled by a spirit.

The way she walked, and the she looked at people, I felt compassionate for her. I truly realized how difficult and suffering it is when our back were bent over for EIGHTEEN YEARS! If Jesus is around there, will he "called her forward and said to her, 'Woman, you are set free from your infirmity'?" (Luke 13:12)

Sitting in diffculty

Readers, we can learn one thing about this old lady. Look at yourself. Your body is totally fine. That is why I always say cherish your body. It is because God only gives our body once in the lifetime. I do not understand why people intend to spoil their body when they were given a fine body. Look at those people who are crippled or handicapped! If they were given a second chance to have a fine body, they will surely understand the meaning of life. They will definitely do something which is meaningful.

I believe the crippled woman in the New Testament, after the healing of Jesus, would start a purposeful life, such as helping those who were crippled. She would have the same compassion for others.

Struggling in opening the door

Readers, cherish your body. And always give thanks to God for He is merciful to you. Furthermore, those who view my blog now, give thanks to God for you still have eyes to see the beautiful creation around you. Always give thanks unto our Lord God Almighty. Amen!

Exodus 23:25
"Worship the LORD your God, and his blessing will be on your food and water. I will take away sickness from among you,"

Chapter 104: Facebook

Today, I was studying in City Mall. I met Ze Hao and we had a good chat. And then I took a short nap on a sofa. When I woke up, I continued to do my assignment: History of Christianity.

Suddenly, a voice sounded "Wah! This girl is very pretty."

I turned to the left side and saw a group of boys viewing girls' photos in Facebook. There were many conversations which can warn those girls who view my blog right now.

"Wah! This girl is good for sex."
"Look at her body. Wah! You sure this is her real photo?"
"Hey! I know her. She is very lustful. I got flirted by her once."

"I hate those girls who post fake photos."
"Look! This ugly girl adds me! Should I add?"
"Oh! This girl, I know her. She is a playgirl in Kian Kok."

"Wah~! Look at her pose!"
"Hey! This girl is very sexy! Shall I add?"
"Come on! This cute girl... I will surely court her to be mine if I can meet her face to face."

And there were many different conversations revealing who these girls are. I felt that Internet is no longer a safe place to make friends. I take myself for an example. I just surf the Google and type "Jack's Stuff", this is what I see.



Girls, some people add you because you might have "something" which caught their attention. You know what I mean. It will not be surprised if your photos were posted in nudity website. And it will be extremely dangerous if all people, whom you do not even know, know about your lifestyle. Whatever you say and do (especially the photos and videos), people will notice. You think you will be famous and attractive? You are definitely putting yourself into a great danger. It's better to be smart than to be sorry. Right now, I warn you too, Christian girls. There are many "wolves" which are waiting to devour you.

Guys, even though you are safe from these nudity website, your mind will be corrupted. All your memories will contain those lustful pollution. And slowly, the devil will introduce you pornography. You may not win some pretty girls' hearts, but you will definitely do some other "intentions" in your own world with her. Do not be a fool!



Advice For girls:
Do not post anything personal in your Blog, Facebook and other applications on internet. Add those only whom you know. But some of the people whom you know ALSO cannot be trusted. Beware of adulterers. You will never know that you are the next Asian or Western porn star on net. *Not joking*

Advice for boys:
Do not be a horny person who only search for those pretty and sexy girls. It will lead you to adultery sin. You will never know that you are the next horrorous Rapist in the world. *Not cursing*

In the end, I can show readers what the best solution on net. A boy raised his voice and say, "Fellows, I cannot post anything personal on net anymore."

"Why?"
"Cos my mama is in Facebook too. She will check on my data and my friends."

Romans 10:23
""Everything is permissible"—but not everything is beneficial. "Everything is permissible"—but not everything is constructive."

Chapter 103: Six Years Back

Six years back in church.
This is the moment which God led me into His Glory... The purpose of writing them down is to remember how great God reveal His Glory to me.
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Youth Worship Concert: Big Day 1 & 2, Fusion, Youth Live Concert (Forever You Reign)

Movie produced: Once again, Let us stand, Metamophosis (Chinese Youth Camp)

Music composed: Affirmation, Forever You Reign, Fusion, Where is Jesus, You are with me, My World and more...

Video produced: J Kids Camp, Movie Night 1 & 2, Music Night, Fusion, Talent Night, Christmas Eve & Day, HOPE, Thanksgiving, Gaya Christmas, Kokol Prayer Retreat Center, Diocesan Children Worship, Conference, Thanksgiving, Diocesan English and Chinese Youth Camp, Chinese New Year, Mooncake Festival, Easter Day and more...

Event launched: Youth Alpha, No apology, The Real Christmas, EOC Children and Youth ministry,

The most time spent in discipleship: Michael Mok, Jack Mok, Jeffry Tan, Jusslee Tan, Gabriel Pang, Joshua Giam, Andy Chong, Cheow Ze Hao, Jonathan Lo, Timothy, and more...

The happiest time spent in ministry: David Lee (KL), Finian Chin (Labuan), Roy (Tawau), Michael Mok (Labuan) ... Those time are the most fruitful ones!
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All of these excluded the ministry in art (e.g. Photography), drama, visitation, logistic, leadership, counseling, healing, preaching, teaching and delivering... Though as compared to other pastors and missionaries, I still have alot to learn. Yet I felt that God had brought me up to this level in only six years. Amazing...!

Behind all these, there are much sorrow, conflicts, misunderstanding, troubles and misery. However, in return, it brought Glory on our Almighty God. Though now some people in church may ignore and neglect me, I will still continue on with my journey. Some people do not even want to say "Hi" to me when they saw me. Yet, God, I will walk extra mile for You and forgive these people. God, Your love will surround me.

God is good all the time.
Now, I also know God wants me to go to another level: to face the real world. This level is even more challenging. God, You still remember my prayer: to be extraordinary.

Joshua 1:9
"Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go."

Chapter 102: Goodbye, Full Time

Yesterday, while rushing my assignments, feeling hungry, ready to go for lunch...
Suddenly, an email popped in...

"you may leave us officially on the 15th October..." Bishop said.

Indeed, I was shocked to see this news. I guess my time is up in the church. It is true that I do not have to waste any time in serving in the church too. Since I had made up my mind, I might as well move forward to achieve my goal.

I had packed all my things in my room. I will leave All Saints' Cathedral on this Thursday. To speak frankly, I was extremely upset to see this email out of the sudden.



I still love the church. Thanks everyone in the church. I grew much in church. Though we have been serving together in church, facing many hardships, many issues, much sorrow, much happiness, much rebukes, much learning... all of these will be in my memory for the rest of my days.

Right now at this moment, I just wanna take a long break to cut off from every church ministry. I wanna devote myself into God. I wanna spend more time with God. When will I start to serve in church ministry again? God knows...

God, at this time, I only want to be with You.
Refresh me, O God. I shall return back to my goal and pursue once again!

God, I need to rest in You for You are my refuge and fortress.

Psalms 16:1
"Keep me safe, O God, for in you I take refuge."

Chapter 101: 101 Path

Some gossiped, some criticised, some kept quiet, some pretended nothing's going on, some really came to me and asked, "Why?"

I really think that this is a good choice. I started to pack my things slowly. Day by day, as I was rushing the assignments in my room, I was thinking time is flying fast.

So I know time is precious, I cannot afford to lose my time to pursue on my goal. I will need to fulfill it in my life. Though people say it is personal, I would say my personal thing is for Glory of God.



As I looked out of the window, I saw the people running past the carpark, which is in front of the Wisma Anglican. I saw some pastors busy walking here and there, even some of the full time staffs walking in fast pace to prepare something. In my mind, I thought, "Fellows, take care..."

I also received a phone call, "Jack, this is such a shock to hear that you are going to quit full time job. How am I going to meet you in the future?"

During the youth cell, I said to my cell members, "I have an announcement to make. 31 October will be my last Saturday in the youth ministry." The youth were shocked especially the youth leaders who are teaming up with me.

Some youth secretly said to me "After you leave the youth, who am I going to share my problem to...?"

These are really true friends. Seriously speaking, those who really care and approach you are the ones who really appreciate your hardwork.



Yeah... True friends you must cherish...

Remembering that is only 101 path for every individual one. Who really knows what to choose for you? Only God shows you the way which you need to accomplish. Do you choose it carefully? Remember this is your destiny. A journey with God will never end.

Psalms 17:5
"My steps have held to your paths; my feet have not slipped."

Chapter 100: Destiny Changed

"I will quit my full time job."

31 October 2009 will be my last day working in All Saints' Cathedral. Looking back from the first day of work in church, I gained tremendous knowledge and learning. It's been six years in church as full time staff. Those days are unforgettable.


I would like to say "Thanks" to those who have been supporting me, guiding me and leading me in church. I believe people will also point fingers at me, saying that I will leave God for sure.

God, this is the path I choose, and I know You will guide me still. In the future, surely no doubt, I will face great challenges and I will learn how to overcome it.

One choice is made, and my whole destiny has changed. This is my life now. Therefore, I will continue to walk on my new journey. No turning back.

For the last four weeks in All Saints' Cathedral... Let me enjoy the days. For those who replace me for the ministry (e.g. Youth Ministry), I would like to thank for all your hard work. I will put down the church ministry to move on my new journey. Let me leave All Saints' Cathedral with peace and joy on 1 November 2009.

God, light my path.

Psalm 119:105
"Your word is a lamp to my feet and a light for my path."