Chapter 114: God's Magnificent Plan

I could not believe at first, I am investing in a videography business. What do I need now?

1) Video Camcorder
2) Laptop
3) Printer
4) CD and CD casings
5) Namecards
6) Friends
7) Business



I do not know whether I have made the right choice. However, God has answered some of my difficulties in getting these items. It is extremely hard. For normal people, they have already given up and move on a normal job. I do not want this. I want to challenge myself into this society where I can meet many people. Hence, Gospel can be shared. First in Malaysia, second is the world.

When I recalled back my childhood, I do not know that I will end up starting a video business. However, as I thought it over, I realised that God has actually started the gift of creativity in me when I was five years old. I did not truly understand this until I decided to start a video business.

Childhood memories:
1) First Rank in drawing (Kindergarten)
2) Start drawing my own face, though failed (6 years old)
3) Start my own comic. (9 years)
4) Creating my own characters (10 years)
5) Representing my Primary School for Art Competition (11 years old)
6) Freddy and Adrian were created (from 12 years till this present day)



After that, my creativity of Art continued to improve. God has given me an attitude "I must find a way to complete this." This can be very dangerous and risky, yet in the end, it always brings God's glory. The things which I had done in Chapter 103 are all completed because of my "stubborn" attitude. I always say, "I must finish this. There must be a way!"

From this childhood memory, I truly understand the meaning when God says "For I know the plan I have for you," Since before I was born, God has already placed a name for me "Jack", meaning "God is gracious". And He placed me a talent of creativity before I was in my mother's womb. God is awesome! He knows me because He is my Creator.

And I truly experience the meaning of "God has a plan for you." Right now, though my video business is not yet started, I will put my trust in my God. From a child who only knows how to draw only, yet he expanded his creativity through multimedia, and now he is opening for his own video busines through this God-given talent. I have the faith that God has planned for my future. God will plan some challenges for me to go through, and in the end, I will glorify His Holy name! Hallelujah! For what He has planned for me will lead me to do His will - to share Jesus Christ to the world.



Through these challenges, I will stand strong and receive great future and hope in God. And I also believe that God has a plan for you, readers (whether Christians or not). Commit your plan and your future into the hand of the Potter. He will bless you and He will grant prosperity in your life...

...for this is God's magnificent plan.

Jeremiah 29:11
"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."

Chapter 113: Canon Sylvia Jeans

Last Friday at 2PM, when I returned back from Labuan, I immediately called Canon Sylvia Jeans who is a missionary from Australia.

"Ibu, I am Jack. What time do you want me to do the videography?"
"Hey! Jack. I am glad that you find me. 2:30PM, we will start our video shooting."

Wow! Half an hour left!

Video shooting in her house
Filipinos - illegal children in Sabah
Without hesitation, I rushed to STS after the arrival. Grabbed a handy camera which Canon had borrowed from STS, rushing to her house. And I was surprised to see that there were so many local and foreign teachers in her house. And I realised that she used her house as a school for illegal children. All the children were Filipinos. I was impressed by her love. Therefore, I found out that her house was served as a mission field.

She had came to Sabah for more than forty years, serving God, stayed celibacy and faithfully working in God's ministry. She has greatly blessed the interior areas especially the Filipinos and Indonesians. She had been sharing the gospel with her whole life without fail. I was thinking her endurance is truly great. I believe she has faced many hardships and she perseveres till this present day.

I was also impressed by those missionaries who are willing to work with her in Sabah. How I wish one day, I can conquer my dream and goal to fulfill the sharing of gospel in other nations. I want to go to other countries to do missions.

Canon Sylvia Jeans (Ibu = Mother)KellieCollinMary
After the video shooting, she invited me into her house. She had eight dogs in her house. All were well fed and fat. We spent another hour to talk and I was shocked that she actually knew that I had left the full time job in All Saints' Cathedral. She did ask me why I quitted the full time. Her face was full of love and care. My heart melted. The way she asked me was very sincere, and she hoped that I would not turn away from God. My answer to her was...

"I want to pursue my dream. And I am still continuing my journey with God. One day, I will fulfil His task in my life."

She was glad to hear that. And I also shared with her about my mission in Wa, Myanmar. She told me not to give up and continue to hold on to the divine calling of God. I agreed and felt touched that someone truly believed what I had just said. In the end, she prayed for me that I will always stay in tune with God.

God, be with me. And I will continue to fight for You. You had called Your only begotten Son, Jesus Christ and You had sent Him to this world to save the lost. And now we had received Your Son as our Lord. Truly beliving in Him, we are saved. Therefore, now He, in the same way, calls us to do God's will (which God has sent Him to do),

...and He also sent us to go.

Isaiah 48:15
"I, even I, have spoken; yes, I have called him. I will bring him, and he will succeed in his mission."

Chapter 112: God Answers Prayer

There was a man who steps into a unfamiliar place.

At his back, he saw no help from people.
At his front, he saw no diretion in the new place.


At that time, he was very panic and stressed. He did not know what to do, but to pray to his God.

"God, since You have led me to a new place, please guide me through Your way. I do not have anyone to depend on. Only You, God, I can depend on."

While he was still searching for a way to stay survived, he prayed, "God, I do not know how to move on my life. What is my next step of life?"

When he looked for his closed one, he prayed, "God, as I wanted to strike the best for you, it seems that my closed one does not seem to care about my future."

When he saw his friends, he prayed, "It seems that they are apart from me, and now I seriously know who my true friends are."

When he met new friends, he prayed, "I found out that the new friends are willing to help me even more than the previous ones. I understand the meaning of Good Samaritan."

When he was finding a way to earn his living, he prayed "God, show me a sign so that I will know what to do. I seriously wanna pursue my goal and conquer my dream to reveal Your Glory."

After he prayed, he saw signs, "God, now I know I need two jobs. I always thought I need one. Show me the way how to move on to the second job."

After he prayed, he saw another sign,
"God, now I know this is true that You had showed me this way. I will pursue it! However, the way You showed me needs a great investment. I need Your provision."

After he prayed, his new friends, his parents, and his real good buddies told him the same thing without asking them for advice. "God, this is not a coincidence. If this is really the way, show me that it works smoothly."

After he prayed, he faced some difficulties which hinder him to achieve his goal. "God, I trust in You. Though I am afraid, though I cannot see the future, yet You are my fortress and my provider. The Lord is my shepherd, I shall not be in want."

After he prayed, he saw helps from God, and it worked in the end! "Oh God! You are truly my God! You are the living God who listens to us. You do not only listen, You act! Lord, we are sinners! Yet You love us wholeheartedly and show me the way of living out faith."

After he prayed, many came to support him and encourage to pursue his goal. "God, now I truly see who my true friends are. They will support me and encourage me. God, You are not only my God, but also my best friend."


In conclusion, God answered all his questions when he prayed.

1) The next step of life - When no one including the closed ones helped him, Good Samaritans came to help him.

2) A sign to know what to do - Two jobs at a time. He thought he only needs a job, but God showed him two!

3) A way to great investement - All came to the same idea, and it worked smoothly!

4) A hardship of depression - God revealed Himself as a fortress, provider and shepherd.

5) A faith to trust in God - God showed His way to prove that God reigns in his life. God revealed Himself as a friend.

6) Receiving God's help - To show that honoring parents is very important.

1 John 4:6
"We are from God, and whoever knows God listens to us; but whoever is not from God does not listen to us. This is how we recognize the Spirit of truth and the spirit of falsehood."

This person who went through this is Jack's Stuff. One of the witness who saw all these incidents is Michael Mok.

Chapter 111: Agency

I will be an agent for Prudential Corporation. Yesterday I entered the company and looked around the boards which showed the people who had achieved their target.

I really admired those who worked really hard to change their life. They want to have a better life. As for me, I want an extraodinary life. I had been praying hard for my future at all times. God, have mercy. I am standing in a society without wings. I have no one to depend on except You, God.

Agent plays very importantly when he is meeting his clients. Agency is a relationship between an agent and a principal. Whatever he does on his business, he is representing the principal. The duties of an agent normally involve in a written contract. A contract contains terms and conditions about the agency and also on behalf of his principal. The principal will be responsible for all contracts which his agent has made.The agent needs to perform his works with care, skill and diligence. And an agent is supposed to bring good news to his clients about his products. Hence, if anything happens to the agent, the principal is in big trouble. However, the agents in Prudential Corporation are so confident that they definitely know they are trusting the right thing.

Therefore, the Prudential Corporation logo is...

"The Face You Can Trust"


It immediately strike me with a face of Jesus.

Jesus is the Son of God, yet He is also working as an agent between God and human. God is the "principal". Whatever Jesus does, God will be responsible. To bring the good news to the human, and save the lost... That's His work which God has sent Him to do. In order to gain access to God, Jesus is the agent (the way, the truth and the life). Now I understand being responsible as an agent for someone is extremely big. Furthermore, Jesus Christ paid His life, once for all, for the entire human races. How much can I feel that Jesus is in a big responsiblity of saving humanity?



Since Jesus had helped us to gain access to God, so we must be Jesus' agents to tell others about the relationship with God. To tell others about the Gospel so that they can be saved. This is an important agency.

Let's be agents for Jesus, so that He will bring good reports to Heavenly Father.

Start our agency now.

John 14:6
"Jesus answered, "I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me."

Chapter 110: Broken Into Thousand Pieces

"Jack..."
"What happened?"

She cried for minutes, and I waited patiently. She is a youth who used to share secret with me. And I become a "place" for her to release her sorrow.



"I felt that my life always face criticism. I am so sad."
"Tell me what exactly happened?" I asked.

"Even my parents discouraged me and always put me to shame in front of others."
"What did they say?"

Readers, I kinda agree with the point that some parents (whether in purpose or not) always put their own children to shame. They discouraged the children and destroy their own children's reputation. This is very dangerous. It will in fact make their children disrespect them and hate them even more. However, I do not understand one thing, "Why did some parents destroy their children's reputation? And when the children rebel against them, they will say 'My children are very rude to me and always go against me!'"


Parents need to be careful of their words and actions. Unnoticedly, the children will hate their parents for life. Before they complained about their children's rebellions, they must think why their children acted in that way. The parents must indeed be responsible in what they had said and done to their children. They must be a good model for their children. Sorry, no offence... Some parents are really ridiculous!

Some parents (especially the Chinese) normally put their children into shame when they were having conversation with others, by saying to others...
"My son is very stupid."
"Wow! Your daughter is beautiful. But my daughter is very ugly."
"Look at your son, he is brillant. But my son is stupid."
"She know nothing, very useless one."
"Ha ha ha... Sorry, my friend. My daughter's hair is very ugly, right?"
"My son is a lazy pig. Always sleep. He knows nothing."

...or saying this to children
"Why is your hair so ugly?
"Why are you so ugly?"
"So stupid! So useless!"
"Look at your cousin. Why are you so stupid?"
"Very stubborn child. Always quarrel with me!"
"I tell you shut up! I am your mother (father)."
"Stop talking to me. Whatever I say is correct."

...or saying this to others when they are in the wrong (to cover their shame).
"Sorry. I am late because of my stupid child."
"Sorry. My son bah! Very stupid! Always make mistakes!"

...or saying this to their children when they rebel.
"What have I done wrong to my children? Why are they so stubborn?"
"I have many useless children. None of you wanna help me."
"Now you grow up, you leave me alone. You do not love me anymore."
"In future, when you have children, you will understand how I feel."
"Why am I suffering so much? You all are really useless!"
"No one understands me. I am so stressed and tired. And you children keep on giving me problems."

I am not critizing about "parents". I hope the parents will understand their children. Even though parents play importantly in supporting the family, even though parents might be stressed in their own lives, even though parents might have sad moments, PLEASE DO NOT HURT CHILDREN'S FEELING. It is not worth it when you have your children hating you. In conclusion, children are NOT toys. They need to be cared and loved. They are HUMAN! They publicly shamed their own children, do they know that the reputation of their children will be destroyed entirely? Where is their praise and compliments?


I show compassion towards this miserable girl. I truly understand how she felt. Her heart has broken into thousand pieces. All I can do is to ask my Heavenly Father to heal her wounds. As a brother in Christ, I comforted her by saying...

"My friend, you are precious in God's eyes. God will not put you to shame. Jesus loves you."

Ephesians 6:4
"Fathers, do not exasperate your children; instead, bring them up in the training and instruction of the Lord."

Chapter 109: Con Man

This was a facebook chat at 9:36am in the morning on 2 November 2009.

*Lime Color = conversation,
Aqua Color = My thought or action
_________________________________

Dinessh: commet my guitar pics bro
comment*

Jack's: can, no problem
(I commented on his photo "Wow! You serious? These are all your guitars." Altogether, more than six E guitars, and more than five A guitars.)

Dinessh: yeah, all are my guitars
ive been playing for 24 years
(You are born in 1979, and you started playing guitar when you were seven years old?)

Jack's: this is awesome!
(I commented on his photo "How much money do you invest on your guitars?")

Dinessh: do i invet in what
invest*

Jack's: haha
it means how much do u spend?

Dinessh: I noe that..u mean on my guitars huh

Jack's: yeah

Dinessh: About 24000 on guitars
and 4000 for guitar maintenance per month
(This is crazy! He is rich, man!)

Jack's: this is very expensive
and what do u work as?

Dinessh: Im a cardiac surgeon

Jack's: this is cool
cardiac is..?

Dinessh: relating to the heart
a.k.a heart surgeon

Jack's: so it must be very dangerous
this is dangerous job
(He must be an experienced wealthy doctor)

Dinessh: ya..but i have never killed anyone

Jack's: so u do this for long time

Dinessh: not so long
((Huh? Not so long?)

Jack's: praise Lord
(Though I praise God for he didnt kill anyone, how did he get so much money to spend on guitars?)

Dinessh: Everybody says im a good surgeon cuz i studied in harvard medical
(I am curious why you said that)

Jack's: hey! good

Dinessh: but i think its our determination that makes us a better doctor

Jack's: very well said
anyway, u in Johor?
(I saw Candice Chhoa in his mutual friend list. She is in Johor. So I thought this guy is from Johor.)

Dinessh: no
why
(Then he is from KK?)

Jack's: then u in?

Dinessh: why did u ask if i was in Johor
(I thought she had met this guy face-to-face in Johor.)

Jack's: about Candice
she is in Johor isnt it

Dinessh: Candice, i just noe her through fb
(Surprising! Through facebook, and she is your MUTUAL friend?)

Jack's: oh

Dinessh: Im in KL now
going to Saudi Arabia for a meeting next week
(Working "not so long", and sent to Saudi for a meeting? You are representing your hospital?)

Jack's: this is cool
(Looking at his profile pictures)

Dinessh: Can i have ur hp number
jack?
(Why did he want my number? I do not even know him at all.)

Jack's: for..
(Found out his pictures were with some celebrities.)

Dinessh: juz wanna noe



Jack's: and u didnt display ur real pic
(I cannot trust fully on what he said to me.)

Dinessh: That is my ouc
pic*

Jack's: the one u stand with a girl?
(This profile picture is from USA pictures. That girl is an American.)

Dinessh: ya
thats my gf
bro, i brb
gotta go take my breakfast
(Man! This celebrity is your girlfriend? Come on... You are lying.)
_______________________

Then I went to check out his profile and video. His profile pictures were that he was with celebrities. And one of them is that he was the actor in one of the American episodes. Then I could not believe that he worked in Malaysia since he had a good background. A surgeon involved in acting in USA? Ridiculous. Then he posted a video "Comment on my guitar skills." The description wrote "I had just played a song yesterday. And I posted it today to share with my friends. Please comment on my guitar skills." Then it was a YouTube video. I clicked on the video link and found out that the video belonged to an American guitarist. His name is Bryan, not Dinessh. And the date was posted in the middle of the August. Then I saw the guitarist Bryan looked totally different from Dinessh. Bryan is NOT in Dinessh's friends list.

This is a Con Man. His information in facebook is false. He posted fake pictures. He posted untrue video which was claimed to be his. Readers, do not simply add people in internet. And they will dig your information such as cellphone number and the location where you stayed. It will bring dangers to your life.
I am serious. I had sent a message to Candice to warn about this con man. Then this faker returned to the conversation. There we continued...
_______________________

Dinessh: im back
ur livin in
(You did not sound like American. I have many American friends, mate. And you digged my location information.)

Jack's: no. i guess it is confidential to tell
sorry
no offence
i felt that ur profile is containing fake info

Dinessh: such as
(You are still pretending.)

Jack's: this is not important
ur video is already a fake
u uised (*used) someone's video



Dinessh: i have a video
yaya
thats was my friends using my fb
(Now you say the video is from your friend... Zzzz...)

Jack's: truly enough
i cant be friend with you
and i felt insecure
and u kept asking me about info
sorry mate

Dinessh: Ur experiencing paranoia mate
(Not bad, huh? Medical terms is in our conversation. Playing psychology?)

Jack's: :)
as u wanna say
bye

10:05am You are not online.

Immediately, "Dinessh Ajit" was not from my friends' list.

Proverbs 9:12
"If you are wise, your wisdom will reward you; if you are a mocker, you alone will suffer."

Chapter 108: Beginning of New Journey

Last night, Jonathan Tse, my buddy called me out for supper. We had our supper in Lido market at 1:30am. There were many people buying supper. I was thinking that this is extremely crazy because the food stall opened from 1am to 6am. What kind of stall is that? Yet many people went there for supper.

As we were eating, We discussed how our future plan gonna be. We might become working partner in future if God willing. I really knew that the life outside is much challenging, yet very fun. I like this challenge. I will continue on my fun journey with God.


Before supper, He brought me to his house where he does sound recording for a living. This guy is a talented person with full of zeal. As both of us talked about God's plan, we individually have our own view to do more for God's kingdom. He indeed is a good partner to work with. He showed me some of his songs. I find it decent. It was comfortable when I heard it. His new album "I'm alive" is about God. I was really encouraged that he continued to strike the best for God even when he was outside. Anyway, do support him. This is his link - Jonathan's Blogspot

When one is clear of what God has called him to do, he will continue on the fire in his heart. God has shown us His vision, that is why we know what we are doing.

At the beginning of new journey, everyone will face hardship and difficulty in life because everything is like starting all over again. Once we overcome the first hardest stage, we will continue to triumph over our foes in Christ.

God, bless the work of our hands.

Psalms 118:7
"The LORD is with me; he is my helper. I will look in triumph on my enemies."

Chapter 106: Farewell

I wanna specially thank Roy for organizing this farewell party for me. That was an unforgettable evening for me. We had lots of fun and laughters. After that, it came to a time when everyone wrote something about me.

First impression:
red face, funny, cool, gay, yeng, nice, friendly, handsome, youtube, cwalk, singer, photographer, talented, "Oh?! This is Jack's Stuff?" etc...

What had I done in their life:
Trustworthy, caring, friendly, heng dai (Buddy in cantonese), "You light up my life.", "Where is my Jack's Stuff T-Shirt?", "Still the same cool Jack's Stuff!", etc...

The most touching note:
"Jack, we will always miss you and love you. You must take care when you are outside. Thanks for your love and care. Always be the handsome Jack."

The most touching thing:
Natalie's cheesecake (The crust is NICE oh! Thanks Natalie for putting hard efforts on it.)

All these memories are very valuable to me. I will continue on my journey outside to face the world. Let the world know about Jesus Christ.

My farewell speech to the ASC Youths:
"Thanks, everyone. I really appreciate the party tonight. However, tonight I am not going to talk about me. I wanna tell you what the important thing you need to know. My leaving is not important. It is the leaders and the interns who stay and continue on the youth ministry are the important ones. You are blessed by God and those leaders and interns. They love you very much. Do you know before every youth ministry starts, the leaders and interns have been praying for all of you? Remember them for life. And honor your leaders and interns. Cherish them. Continue to work with them. And raise yourself up as a leader. Give glory to God."










1 Chronicles 29:9
"The people rejoiced at the willing response of their leaders, for they had given freely and wholeheartedly to the LORD. David the king also rejoiced greatly."

Chapter 105: An Old Lady

Yesterday, I was studying in McDonald, Api Api Center. I was doing my final assignment - New Testament.

Then there was an old lady who walked past me. "She was bent over and could not straighten up at all." (Luke 13:11) I immediately recalled on the sermon which Rev Yong had preached on one of the Sunday services. It was about the woman who had been crippled by a spirit for eighteen years. I was not sure whether this old lady whom I met in McDonald was crippled by a spirit.

The way she walked, and the she looked at people, I felt compassionate for her. I truly realized how difficult and suffering it is when our back were bent over for EIGHTEEN YEARS! If Jesus is around there, will he "called her forward and said to her, 'Woman, you are set free from your infirmity'?" (Luke 13:12)

Sitting in diffculty

Readers, we can learn one thing about this old lady. Look at yourself. Your body is totally fine. That is why I always say cherish your body. It is because God only gives our body once in the lifetime. I do not understand why people intend to spoil their body when they were given a fine body. Look at those people who are crippled or handicapped! If they were given a second chance to have a fine body, they will surely understand the meaning of life. They will definitely do something which is meaningful.

I believe the crippled woman in the New Testament, after the healing of Jesus, would start a purposeful life, such as helping those who were crippled. She would have the same compassion for others.

Struggling in opening the door

Readers, cherish your body. And always give thanks to God for He is merciful to you. Furthermore, those who view my blog now, give thanks to God for you still have eyes to see the beautiful creation around you. Always give thanks unto our Lord God Almighty. Amen!

Exodus 23:25
"Worship the LORD your God, and his blessing will be on your food and water. I will take away sickness from among you,"

Chapter 104: Facebook

Today, I was studying in City Mall. I met Ze Hao and we had a good chat. And then I took a short nap on a sofa. When I woke up, I continued to do my assignment: History of Christianity.

Suddenly, a voice sounded "Wah! This girl is very pretty."

I turned to the left side and saw a group of boys viewing girls' photos in Facebook. There were many conversations which can warn those girls who view my blog right now.

"Wah! This girl is good for sex."
"Look at her body. Wah! You sure this is her real photo?"
"Hey! I know her. She is very lustful. I got flirted by her once."

"I hate those girls who post fake photos."
"Look! This ugly girl adds me! Should I add?"
"Oh! This girl, I know her. She is a playgirl in Kian Kok."

"Wah~! Look at her pose!"
"Hey! This girl is very sexy! Shall I add?"
"Come on! This cute girl... I will surely court her to be mine if I can meet her face to face."

And there were many different conversations revealing who these girls are. I felt that Internet is no longer a safe place to make friends. I take myself for an example. I just surf the Google and type "Jack's Stuff", this is what I see.



Girls, some people add you because you might have "something" which caught their attention. You know what I mean. It will not be surprised if your photos were posted in nudity website. And it will be extremely dangerous if all people, whom you do not even know, know about your lifestyle. Whatever you say and do (especially the photos and videos), people will notice. You think you will be famous and attractive? You are definitely putting yourself into a great danger. It's better to be smart than to be sorry. Right now, I warn you too, Christian girls. There are many "wolves" which are waiting to devour you.

Guys, even though you are safe from these nudity website, your mind will be corrupted. All your memories will contain those lustful pollution. And slowly, the devil will introduce you pornography. You may not win some pretty girls' hearts, but you will definitely do some other "intentions" in your own world with her. Do not be a fool!



Advice For girls:
Do not post anything personal in your Blog, Facebook and other applications on internet. Add those only whom you know. But some of the people whom you know ALSO cannot be trusted. Beware of adulterers. You will never know that you are the next Asian or Western porn star on net. *Not joking*

Advice for boys:
Do not be a horny person who only search for those pretty and sexy girls. It will lead you to adultery sin. You will never know that you are the next horrorous Rapist in the world. *Not cursing*

In the end, I can show readers what the best solution on net. A boy raised his voice and say, "Fellows, I cannot post anything personal on net anymore."

"Why?"
"Cos my mama is in Facebook too. She will check on my data and my friends."

Romans 10:23
""Everything is permissible"—but not everything is beneficial. "Everything is permissible"—but not everything is constructive."

Chapter 102: Goodbye, Full Time

Yesterday, while rushing my assignments, feeling hungry, ready to go for lunch...
Suddenly, an email popped in...

"you may leave us officially on the 15th October..." Bishop said.

Indeed, I was shocked to see this news. I guess my time is up in the church. It is true that I do not have to waste any time in serving in the church too. Since I had made up my mind, I might as well move forward to achieve my goal.

I had packed all my things in my room. I will leave All Saints' Cathedral on this Thursday. To speak frankly, I was extremely upset to see this email out of the sudden.



I still love the church. Thanks everyone in the church. I grew much in church. Though we have been serving together in church, facing many hardships, many issues, much sorrow, much happiness, much rebukes, much learning... all of these will be in my memory for the rest of my days.

Right now at this moment, I just wanna take a long break to cut off from every church ministry. I wanna devote myself into God. I wanna spend more time with God. When will I start to serve in church ministry again? God knows...

God, at this time, I only want to be with You.
Refresh me, O God. I shall return back to my goal and pursue once again!

God, I need to rest in You for You are my refuge and fortress.

Psalms 16:1
"Keep me safe, O God, for in you I take refuge."

Chapter 101: 101 Path

Some gossiped, some criticised, some kept quiet, some pretended nothing's going on, some really came to me and asked, "Why?"

I really think that this is a good choice. I started to pack my things slowly. Day by day, as I was rushing the assignments in my room, I was thinking time is flying fast.

So I know time is precious, I cannot afford to lose my time to pursue on my goal. I will need to fulfill it in my life. Though people say it is personal, I would say my personal thing is for Glory of God.



As I looked out of the window, I saw the people running past the carpark, which is in front of the Wisma Anglican. I saw some pastors busy walking here and there, even some of the full time staffs walking in fast pace to prepare something. In my mind, I thought, "Fellows, take care..."

I also received a phone call, "Jack, this is such a shock to hear that you are going to quit full time job. How am I going to meet you in the future?"

During the youth cell, I said to my cell members, "I have an announcement to make. 31 October will be my last Saturday in the youth ministry." The youth were shocked especially the youth leaders who are teaming up with me.

Some youth secretly said to me "After you leave the youth, who am I going to share my problem to...?"

These are really true friends. Seriously speaking, those who really care and approach you are the ones who really appreciate your hardwork.



Yeah... True friends you must cherish...

Remembering that is only 101 path for every individual one. Who really knows what to choose for you? Only God shows you the way which you need to accomplish. Do you choose it carefully? Remember this is your destiny. A journey with God will never end.

Psalms 17:5
"My steps have held to your paths; my feet have not slipped."

Chapter 100: Destiny Changed

"I will quit my full time job."

31 October 2009 will be my last day working in All Saints' Cathedral. Looking back from the first day of work in church, I gained tremendous knowledge and learning. It's been six years in church as full time staff. Those days are unforgettable.


I would like to say "Thanks" to those who have been supporting me, guiding me and leading me in church. I believe people will also point fingers at me, saying that I will leave God for sure.

God, this is the path I choose, and I know You will guide me still. In the future, surely no doubt, I will face great challenges and I will learn how to overcome it.

One choice is made, and my whole destiny has changed. This is my life now. Therefore, I will continue to walk on my new journey. No turning back.

For the last four weeks in All Saints' Cathedral... Let me enjoy the days. For those who replace me for the ministry (e.g. Youth Ministry), I would like to thank for all your hard work. I will put down the church ministry to move on my new journey. Let me leave All Saints' Cathedral with peace and joy on 1 November 2009.

God, light my path.

Psalm 119:105
"Your word is a lamp to my feet and a light for my path."

Chapter 99: No Turning Back

Jack, one more month to go. Everything will be over. God knows you are really tired... of everything.

Though assignments and exams are approaching near, you will push your limit to finish all of them. It is extremely hard to accomplish all the papers with good result. But you will try your best. You should give thanks to God for you have been given time to do most of the assignments. You must believe you can do it.

Jack, time is getting nearer. You will have a good task to do again. You will do something which people will first misunderstand you.

Jack, as time goes by, people will figure it out. However, you need to stand strong in time of crisis. Learn to face another reality. Therefore, you will rise up and push to the full force again. Remember that what people said about you, do not put it in heart. You will depend on God, your Lord because you believe in Him. He will not forsake you. He will remember what you have said to Him.
He will always remember...

...because He listens to your prayer.

Jack, You will face lots of insult and criticism. You will face new enemies in future. You will gain no support from friends. However, that is a greater goal in future. God, your Lord will keep you in His hands. And you will never be alone. And those who love you will welcome you into the family of God.

Once chosen this path, no turning back. Are you ready, Jack?

Psalms 16:11
"You have made known to me the path of life; you will fill me with joy in your presence, with eternal pleasures at your right hand."