Chapter 129: Who Will Be Left?

It's been a month for not blogging, yet learning so much from others.

During February (ten days), I had been to KL for Prudential Training. Of course, at the same time, I was very excited and happy to meet my best brother, Michael. We had a lot to share with each other. He even introduced a lot of his friends to me. I really enjoyed my days in KL, feeling that I was actually entering into a greater exposure.

On 22 February, I went to attend a Prudential seminar which trained the new agents to be a good and professional ones who can really help the need of others.

During the seminar, I met many friends. We had a lot to share about our future. Some had simple dreams; some just wanna have an ordinary life; some wanna be the top agents throughout Malaysia... As for me, I still stay focused on my goal.

I met a guy named Darren. He was actually a smart guy who really knew how to figure out the solutions in hard times. I really admired him one thing. He did things directly. His current salary was more than RM3000. As for a new agent, I can say he was extremely good. Well, KK is not KL. Therefore, I do believe the difference between the people in these both places.

As the days were passing by, I had lunch with Darren. We talked alot about how to engage with clients. Then he looked at the agents in the cafeteria, and grinned, he said, "Not all of us will stay in this career."

I understood what he was trying to say. He was arrogant in saying, "Look at them. As you see their actions, you can actually tell who can really stay in this line."

"I have no comment." I replied.

He looked at me, and smiled, "Why do you say that? Do you not agree?"

I smiled and said politely, "Bro, who really can stay in this career? It does not matter me. As long as we are doing the right thing, we know what we are doing. Definitely, we will succeed in life."

"Well said, mate. We will see who will be left." He grinned.

"However, I do admire you. I believe you will be very successful in life." Enviously I said.

He stood up from the chair, walked towards me and tapped on my shoulder, "Bro, how can you say that? This world is equal. We all stand equally. Everyone was given an opportunity to fight for it."

This phrase really inspired me. I was encouraged and yet at the same time, worrying about my goal whether I can be able to achieve. Before Darren left me alone, he again said in arrogance,

"Hey Dude! You looked worried. I can smell you. Put that away."

Matthew 6:27
"Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?"

Chapter 119: Continue to Move on

I praise God for His mercy. Once I got my camcorder, I will start to make business. I do pray that God will continue to bless in my journey. I need Him in my life.

As I was doing something in my room, my daddy entered my room and sat on my bed. He had a long conversation with me. Then he began to say something about lifestyle.

"Jack, as we show our good deeds to others, God will delight in it. Wherever we are in, no matter what circumstances we will face, we must be faithful in what we are doing. I believe when we are placed in that particular position, and when we do our best in that position, God will certainly bless us and others through our particular positions. Hence, we must do our best for God."

I was thinking that it is true. Not only to evangelize, to preach the Gospel, we must also live out our faith for Jesus Christ. We are called to be the light and the salt for Jesus. Therefore, in our Christian lifestyle, we must show our deeds to others and they will see and know who God is in our life.

God, I continue to ask for Your leading, and I shall not be afraid to move forward. Sometimes people around me (whom I do not even know) say something about me being misleading and giving wrong teachings, what do they know about my relationship with God? Why should I argue with them? No matter what they say about me, I do not care. But if I see any good advice for those who show me true sincerity and love, I will surely take it. And I will seriously thank those people who are part of my life, building me up and strong in Christ. For I know they wanna see my success in glorifying God.

I will continue to live for You in what I am doing, God. It is because that is my relationship with my Lord, Jesus Christ. I will not give up. I will continue to move on.

God, be with me.

Psalms 146:2
"I will praise the LORD all my life; I will sing praise to my God as long as I live."

Chapter 113: Canon Sylvia Jeans

Last Friday at 2PM, when I returned back from Labuan, I immediately called Canon Sylvia Jeans who is a missionary from Australia.

"Ibu, I am Jack. What time do you want me to do the videography?"
"Hey! Jack. I am glad that you find me. 2:30PM, we will start our video shooting."

Wow! Half an hour left!

Video shooting in her house
Filipinos - illegal children in Sabah
Without hesitation, I rushed to STS after the arrival. Grabbed a handy camera which Canon had borrowed from STS, rushing to her house. And I was surprised to see that there were so many local and foreign teachers in her house. And I realised that she used her house as a school for illegal children. All the children were Filipinos. I was impressed by her love. Therefore, I found out that her house was served as a mission field.

She had came to Sabah for more than forty years, serving God, stayed celibacy and faithfully working in God's ministry. She has greatly blessed the interior areas especially the Filipinos and Indonesians. She had been sharing the gospel with her whole life without fail. I was thinking her endurance is truly great. I believe she has faced many hardships and she perseveres till this present day.

I was also impressed by those missionaries who are willing to work with her in Sabah. How I wish one day, I can conquer my dream and goal to fulfill the sharing of gospel in other nations. I want to go to other countries to do missions.

Canon Sylvia Jeans (Ibu = Mother)KellieCollinMary
After the video shooting, she invited me into her house. She had eight dogs in her house. All were well fed and fat. We spent another hour to talk and I was shocked that she actually knew that I had left the full time job in All Saints' Cathedral. She did ask me why I quitted the full time. Her face was full of love and care. My heart melted. The way she asked me was very sincere, and she hoped that I would not turn away from God. My answer to her was...

"I want to pursue my dream. And I am still continuing my journey with God. One day, I will fulfil His task in my life."

She was glad to hear that. And I also shared with her about my mission in Wa, Myanmar. She told me not to give up and continue to hold on to the divine calling of God. I agreed and felt touched that someone truly believed what I had just said. In the end, she prayed for me that I will always stay in tune with God.

God, be with me. And I will continue to fight for You. You had called Your only begotten Son, Jesus Christ and You had sent Him to this world to save the lost. And now we had received Your Son as our Lord. Truly beliving in Him, we are saved. Therefore, now He, in the same way, calls us to do God's will (which God has sent Him to do),

...and He also sent us to go.

Isaiah 48:15
"I, even I, have spoken; yes, I have called him. I will bring him, and he will succeed in his mission."

Chapter 102: Goodbye, Full Time

Yesterday, while rushing my assignments, feeling hungry, ready to go for lunch...
Suddenly, an email popped in...

"you may leave us officially on the 15th October..." Bishop said.

Indeed, I was shocked to see this news. I guess my time is up in the church. It is true that I do not have to waste any time in serving in the church too. Since I had made up my mind, I might as well move forward to achieve my goal.

I had packed all my things in my room. I will leave All Saints' Cathedral on this Thursday. To speak frankly, I was extremely upset to see this email out of the sudden.



I still love the church. Thanks everyone in the church. I grew much in church. Though we have been serving together in church, facing many hardships, many issues, much sorrow, much happiness, much rebukes, much learning... all of these will be in my memory for the rest of my days.

Right now at this moment, I just wanna take a long break to cut off from every church ministry. I wanna devote myself into God. I wanna spend more time with God. When will I start to serve in church ministry again? God knows...

God, at this time, I only want to be with You.
Refresh me, O God. I shall return back to my goal and pursue once again!

God, I need to rest in You for You are my refuge and fortress.

Psalms 16:1
"Keep me safe, O God, for in you I take refuge."

Chapter 88: Wagamama Sushi

My sister, Rachel, came to find me and see how I am doing. Entering my room, she immediately saw something on my table. Picking up the 50% voucher and shout “Brother! I want to eat Wagamama Sushi!”

It’s been a long time that me and my sister did not hang out together. Hence, I brought my sister and her friend to go and have dinner in Wagamama Japanese Restaurant.

When we started to order Sushi, she was very excited. She even ordered one of her favorite sushi – the salmon with rice and mayonnaise. I was like…

“Huh? Sushi with mayo?”
“Yeah! You do not know now the sushi got mayo?”

Then I also saw sushi with avocado, sushi with cheese, sushi with whatever…

“With Cheese?”

Rachel and her friend were laughing at me, saying that nowadays sushi is more westernized now. Then I suddenly thought about that now most of the nations are mixed with different cultures. Even food is involved in cultural issues. Chinese food with western style… for example. Everything changes, ya?

I started to think about the church today. Did the doctrine of theology also change due to the cultural issues? There are many changes in Jesus’ teachings in certain churches. There are many extra doctrines which do not even exist in the scriptures. Some people even change the true meaning in the bible. Some introduce certain things which we do not even know whether it is true or not. Some introduce things which cannot be found in bible. All of these have really mixed up the whole system of the church. It affects the whole body of Christ. Many churches are corrupted. There are why many denominations are formed. I was thinking why churches are divided though they all believe in one God.

God, You do not delight in division among the churches. You want all the churches to fulfill one purpose for You – to bring good news to the lost. I wonder Jesus has given us the task on what to do. However, many people tend to mix it up and make Jesus’ teachings even more complicated. They have many disputes and conflicts. God, this should not be. God, have mercy on us sinners.

God, I really do hope to see all different churches will unite as one – the Church of Jesus. People will worship You, together praising Your Holy Name, shouting “Hallelujah!”

God, I know this is what You wanna see. I really wanna do this for You, to unite the churches back. Knowing it is hard because people’s wisdom will block them from listening to the truth.

God, this is my desire. Knowing I am nothing, but a junk! Yet I believe God will not despise and use my life for Your glory! Let this burn in my heart. Use me as Your tool, and glorify Your name.

Ephesians 4:3-6
"Make every effort to keep the unity of the Spirit through the bond of peace. There is one body and one Spirit—just as you were called to one hope when you were called— one Lord, one faith, one baptism; one God and Father of all, who is over all and through all and in all."

Zhen Zhen and RachelAnd the dinner in Wagamama cost me RM113.45.

RACHEL! AHHHH…!!!

Chapter 69: Optimus Prime's Vision

“Transformers 2” is really a good movie. I am a person who loves to see the animated actions. I believe it is because I am also a kind of “multimedia” guy. I kept wondering how the video editor managed to make the animation so wonderfully. It is very impressive.

I watched it with a group of Christians. Some said it was very boring; some say it was terrific. Well, different people, different taste.
To me, 5 stars for this movie.


Readers, we can learn one thing from this movie – Pursue of vision. Optimus Prime chose his path to protect the humans. That was his vision. When Sam made a wrong decision, it, in fact, turned the whole situation into the worst scenario. Optimus Prime was destroyed just because he wanted to save Sam. Did he know he will be destroyed? Did he know he will be revived again? Did he know that he will rise and the enemy falls?

All he knew is that he pursued his own vision. Even when the human leader asked the Autobots to leave the earth, Optimus Prime still chose to stay; he did not listen to the human leader. Though he was rejected and discouraged, he still stayed strong in his own vision. “What if you are wrong, when we leave?” Frankly speaking, many people will easily give up on their goals when some people started to say something and decide on their future.


This is very true. After our decision was final, we do not know what kind of consequence we will face. We cannot see our future. However, we must believe in faith that we made a right decision, and there is no turning back. People always choose our life path for us. People will say, “This is good for you," or "That is good for you.”

Is that what you want? I was thinking,

“Aren’t we supposed to decide our path by ourselves, instead of others choosing for us?”

Readers, our life is in God’s hand. However, it is also in our hands. We always say, “Let God guide us.” and live dully after that. In fact, we did not let God handle our life. It is the people around us who make the decisions for us. God wants us to plan for our future. He has given us a vision. And this vision is God’s plan for us. Not everyone will agree with your vision, only you yourself and God will understand. When we are ready to claim His vision, He will promise to fulfill what He has given us. But,
do you dare to step out the challenge and claim His promise? Or you would follow what the people choose for you?

I believe those who read this post will understand what I am trying to say. I am not promoting LAWLESSNESS. Do not do anything which sins against God. That’s never God’s vision for you. Pray to Holy Spirit and God will reveal His ultimate purpose for you in your life. Your vision should not contradict the Scriptures. Jesus Christ teaches us that whatever the Father told Him to do, He will do.


God has given me a vision. And I have promised God that I will do it. I wanna claim my vision from God. I wanna be successful. I wanna be famous. I do not want to be ordinary person. I do not wanna to be a guy who does his same task daily. This is meaningless to me. I am ready to face the world. I know people will not understand and they will think I choose my path wrongly. However, they will understand me one day. One day, they will see the Glory of God.

No doubt, this is my goal.

God will lift me up. Raise me up, God.

Acts 2:17
" 'In the last days, God says, I will pour out my Spirit on all people. Your sons and daughters will prophesy, your young men will see visions, your old men will dream dreams."