Chapter 110: Broken Into Thousand Pieces

"Jack..."
"What happened?"

She cried for minutes, and I waited patiently. She is a youth who used to share secret with me. And I become a "place" for her to release her sorrow.



"I felt that my life always face criticism. I am so sad."
"Tell me what exactly happened?" I asked.

"Even my parents discouraged me and always put me to shame in front of others."
"What did they say?"

Readers, I kinda agree with the point that some parents (whether in purpose or not) always put their own children to shame. They discouraged the children and destroy their own children's reputation. This is very dangerous. It will in fact make their children disrespect them and hate them even more. However, I do not understand one thing, "Why did some parents destroy their children's reputation? And when the children rebel against them, they will say 'My children are very rude to me and always go against me!'"


Parents need to be careful of their words and actions. Unnoticedly, the children will hate their parents for life. Before they complained about their children's rebellions, they must think why their children acted in that way. The parents must indeed be responsible in what they had said and done to their children. They must be a good model for their children. Sorry, no offence... Some parents are really ridiculous!

Some parents (especially the Chinese) normally put their children into shame when they were having conversation with others, by saying to others...
"My son is very stupid."
"Wow! Your daughter is beautiful. But my daughter is very ugly."
"Look at your son, he is brillant. But my son is stupid."
"She know nothing, very useless one."
"Ha ha ha... Sorry, my friend. My daughter's hair is very ugly, right?"
"My son is a lazy pig. Always sleep. He knows nothing."

...or saying this to children
"Why is your hair so ugly?
"Why are you so ugly?"
"So stupid! So useless!"
"Look at your cousin. Why are you so stupid?"
"Very stubborn child. Always quarrel with me!"
"I tell you shut up! I am your mother (father)."
"Stop talking to me. Whatever I say is correct."

...or saying this to others when they are in the wrong (to cover their shame).
"Sorry. I am late because of my stupid child."
"Sorry. My son bah! Very stupid! Always make mistakes!"

...or saying this to their children when they rebel.
"What have I done wrong to my children? Why are they so stubborn?"
"I have many useless children. None of you wanna help me."
"Now you grow up, you leave me alone. You do not love me anymore."
"In future, when you have children, you will understand how I feel."
"Why am I suffering so much? You all are really useless!"
"No one understands me. I am so stressed and tired. And you children keep on giving me problems."

I am not critizing about "parents". I hope the parents will understand their children. Even though parents play importantly in supporting the family, even though parents might be stressed in their own lives, even though parents might have sad moments, PLEASE DO NOT HURT CHILDREN'S FEELING. It is not worth it when you have your children hating you. In conclusion, children are NOT toys. They need to be cared and loved. They are HUMAN! They publicly shamed their own children, do they know that the reputation of their children will be destroyed entirely? Where is their praise and compliments?


I show compassion towards this miserable girl. I truly understand how she felt. Her heart has broken into thousand pieces. All I can do is to ask my Heavenly Father to heal her wounds. As a brother in Christ, I comforted her by saying...

"My friend, you are precious in God's eyes. God will not put you to shame. Jesus loves you."

Ephesians 6:4
"Fathers, do not exasperate your children; instead, bring them up in the training and instruction of the Lord."

Chapter 70: She said, “I will finish it!”

Last Sunday, a girl wept in front of me.

“Are you ok?”
She remained silent for a long period.

Touching her head, and encouraging her,
“Girl, you will be fine, ok?”
“I don’t think I can be able to finish my final project. It is very important. I am much stressed..”

After saying that, I felt her heart was full of pressure. I can understand why she felt that. That is her last year of college study. No matter what, she needs to get her degree by the end of this year.

“Well, tell me what you are stuck in project. Perhaps I can guide you and give you some advice. I used to study in college before. At least I know how to do a project.”

“I also don’t know. I just can’t do it. I am scared.”

“Don’t think like that. Ok? We still can pray. God will not leave you forsaken. Ask God to give you wisdom. Well, if you need me to help you, just give me a call. I will show you the way.”

She nodded her head, tears kept rolling down her cheek.

Last Monday, I SMS her, “So how is your assignment going on?”
“I am glad that the teacher is willing to give me some comments on how to do the project.”

“GREAT! So you know where you are going now? You started your project already?”

“Ya! Thanks for encouraging and praying for me. Now I know where to start. I will finish it!”

Readers, this is the life which we are facing all the times. Human beings are weird. Before we start to do anything, we always doubt. We always give lots of stupid excuses “What if..? What if…?” We always say “This is hard!” or “I guess this is risky.” We even suspect our own strength whether we can do it or not. Many people love to say, “I don’t know. I don’t know.” so that they can avoid themselves from facing their life issues. Not only ridiculous, This is STUPIDITY too.

Hello! There are many of our things which are left undone. Many people choose to leave it and never dare to face it. All they know is stuck there and doing nothing. People always love to give reasons which will hinder them from reaching their own goal. In the end, when the matter is over, they will start to say something stupid.

However, take a look at this girl. After prayer and encouragement, she woke up from chaos. What did she do? Of course, God is with her, helping her. But she also ACTS! She went to find her lecturer. And now she is very happy. She even gains confidence in what she needs to do. The joyous thing is...

she said, “I will finish it!”

As for me, will I leave God’s vision which is given to me undone? Will I abandon my goal and my desire which bring greater glory of God? Will I choose to give excuses and run away from it? Will I say, "I don't know what to do. I feel like I wanna give up."?

Absolutely NO!
I tell you this, in the name of Jesus Christ, the Son of God, I will conquer my dream.


Psalms 37:5
"Commit your way to the LORD; trust in him and he will do this:"

Chapter 38: Names (Part I)

“Hey! Mok Jia Jun!”

Michael called me on 26 March 2009. He told me that he hates people calling his full name in a mocking way. I believe that if they just call “Jia Jun” in a sincere way, Michael will accept it.

Jack and Michael
Everyone has a name. A name is given for that person’s identity. A name is never given to make fun of. I do hate people dishonor my name “Jack” by calling me “Jackass”. Fellows, you do not even know that you disgrace the name of God. Do you not know that “Jack” means “God is gracious”? Such a simple yet a wonderful name, my mother has given to me. Hallelujah!

Proverbs 22:1
"A good name is more desirable than great riches; to be esteemed is better than silver or gold."

“Names” are powerful. It can influence your emotional, physical, and spiritual.

If we respect and honor others’ names,
we gain people’s love, respect and trust.
If we disrespect and dishonor others’ names,
we gain people’s hatred, anger and vengeance.
If some names are famous,
people will feel envious and jealous.
If some names are unpopular,
people will feel disgusting and sick.

Why do people hate others to make fun of their names? As I had mentioned in Chapter 29: Human Beings (Part I), human beings are weird. When people make fun of others’ name, they think it is very fun, but when their names are made fun by others, they will be angry. Do they not know others will hate it too when they make fun of others’?

I have a youth named John PSD. PSD means “Prabakaran Solomon Dhanaraj”. “Prabakaran” means Morning Sun, “Dhanaraj” means King of wealth. But, some fools make fun of his surname by calling his surname “Play Station”.
You think it is funny? How rude it is. Do you think he will not be angry?

John PSD
Readers, who likes to let people making fun of their names? Only the fools will make fun of people’s name. When the fools make fun of others, do they not know that their reputation will be destroyed by their own stupid words? When they make fun of others, do they not know they create enemies? Do they not know that their names will be very irritating and disgusting when others hear their “bad reputation” names? And it is even more pathetic for the fools to say,

“Hey! Why is he so petty? We are just playing with him only. Why is he so serious? He cannot take jokes.”

Proverbs 18:6
“A fool's lips bring him strife, and his mouth invites a beating.”

These people are really fools.
Don’t you think so? Respect people’s name for every name is unique for their own identity.


To be continued Chapter 39: Names (Part II)

Chapter 33: World of sadness

Continued from Chapter 32: Painful Loss of Money

After the car bill settlement, I went to a coffee restaurant to have two pieces of bread. While I was sitting there, thinking moodily about the incident, I suddenly heard a loud voice from the next table.

“What?! You always say like that! You think you know everything. Then what will happen to me now? You say you don’t know?! @#$%^&*!!”
(In Cantonese)

It was a young working lady shouting to her phone. After she hung up the phone, she put both her hands on her face, keep on mumbling. I could not hear what she said. Then as I turned my face to the owner of the restaurant who was talking on the phone, I observed his frustration. Then I recalled a few blogs which related to my friends and their family problems. Some of my youths were crying in darkness which we do not even know. They face their terrible problems too. Apparently, I felt that I was NOT the only one who was sad at that time. I could sense that this world is full of sadness. If it is to compare the probability of the happiness and sadness, I believe sadness has the higher percentage.

God, I was thinking that I was NOT that bad as compared to those sorrowful people around me. I believe God wants to train me into extraordinary person, as this is also my prayer request.

Right now, even though I face a trial of finance disability, yet I will praise my God, my Savior.. Now, I lost RM200, yet I still believe God will provide me the needs. He will not make me ashamed. RM200 is my two months pocket money, …

2 Corinthians 12:9
But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you,…”

God, thank you.
God, I still have You in my life.
My situation is not that bad after all.

Chapter 32: Painful Loss of Money

Today I lost RM200.
It was my two months pocket money.

In the morning, I went to fetch a youth leader from Beverly Hills because she needed to attend the Youth Cell Leader’s training. The traffic jam in Beverly Hills was extremely heavy.
Along the T junction, I had a chance to turn.

Suddenly, “CRACK!!!”

Car Accident

I turned back and saw a blue car behind me. It was a car accident. The driver told me to come down from the vehicle. I checked my own vehicle and found that it was alright. When I went to see the driver, he was smiling at me and said, (in Malay) “Luckily, it is just a scratch along the plastic on my bumper.” When I viewed the scratch, a small little piece of plastic broke off. I was relieved.

Without hesitation, he responded, “Therefore, you just need to change my bumper.” I was surprised, questioned “I thought you just need to change the plastic only?” He replied, “In workshop, no one sells a spare part for the plastic only. You just give me 2-5 (in malay).”

Giving out a relaxed sigh… Thanks God, I was relieved. “So I paid you RM25 now?”

“No, it’s RM250.”


To my horror, I was totally frozen in my actions. I felt a deep blade cut in my heart. It even pierced through my body. It was so painful. I cannot imagine how painful it is when I need to save money, and I lost it.

Oh no! My money! RM250!!! I can’t stand the pain in my heart. There were full of thoughts in my mind.

“God, why does it happen when I need to save money for my future?” “God, I should not fetch this youth in the first place. So troublesome!” “God, why do you let this happen? God, I need money badly now.” “God, I do not want to fetch people anymore because it only brings trouble to me.” “God, because of this ministry, I met a car accident!!" "God, I even woke up early in the morning, now I need to face this crap?” “God, how I wish I do not serve! God, why does it have to be me?” "God, I want to blame you but it is not your fault! It's my carelessness. I do not know what to say!" “God, I want to hate you but I cannot hate! God, You know my need! Why...? Why...? Why...?”

In times of hardship, it was too hard to praise the Lord. How am I supposed to open my mouth and say, “Don’t worry, everything does fine.”? I really can sense the importance of money is precious in my life. We always say, “We who serve in the church do not look at money higher than God. God is the one whom we depend on.”

However, it is not true. Who does not need money? When we lost our money (especially in times of need), I know we cannot be able to be joyful. It is too hard to smile. It was so painful to bear the HURT in my heart! How can it be recovered fully? Jesus, do you care for me? Somehow I believed God has a message for me. God wants me to live by faith. However, God… This is so hard to do. How do you want me to praise You at this time? God, how am I going to survive?

God… God… God…
What is this?!

Psalms 42:5
“Why are you downcast, O, my soul? Why so disturbed within me? Put your hope in God, for I will yet praise Him, my Savior and my God.”

In the end, the person asked the workshop to get discount.
And it costs RM200. I praised God for that.

Chapter 32: The lesson about fishing

During STS Retreat, we have a fishing game. There is an old folk home besides Pace Bene. There it owns a fishing pool. The rental for each fishing rod is RM2. The duration for fishing is RM3 per hour. The price of fishes is RM12 per KG.

We had a great time together fishing. We were divided into 10 groups. We have a lot of fun fishing with all the people. At first, it rained heavily. After 20 minutes, the rain stopped. After the game, many people were returning back to the rooms for shower. From this fishing game, I began to figure out it can be related to evangelism, mission and moral story.
Fishing game

1) Evangelism
My group got the biggest fish. The person happened to be a girl. When she caught it, everyone was amazed. Then we decided to celebrate our supper by eating this fish. During the supper, the girl found that the fish was gone! She was too late to have a single taste of it. From here, we can see that the importance is not on the catcher but those people who ate it. We are like those people, “eating” Jesus Christ for the redemption..

2) Mission
Every group will need to send out 5 fishermen (whether experienced or not). During the game, some people caught big fishes, some people caught small fishes. Some people caught none. I caught none too. Those who got fishes were encouraged. Those who got none were upset and discouraged. It is just like the Christian missionaries who were sent out to other places. Some received no fruit at all in mission. Some successfully planted a big church.

3) Moral Story
When it was raining, some said, “Fishes normally do not come out during the rainfall. But the fishes will go up to the water surface after the rainfall.”

When those people who catch no fish, they said, “The fishes are too smart. The fishes identify all sorts of traps and tricks.”

When someone caught big fishes, they said, “They caught big fishes, because big fishes have no brain.”

When someone brought the fishes back, they said, “They have luck. How fortunate they are!”

The moral of the story is telling us that human beings love to defend themselves when they fail to do something.

Fisher of Men

Chapter 31: STS Retreat

The STS retreat was wonderful! I had a great rest and refresh myself greatly. We went to a place called Pace Bene, Papar. It is located with nature surrounding. That was a lovely place to stay. There are a group of sisters who will mainly take care of the food, the accommodation and cleanliness. We didn’t need to do the work, and cook food.

Pace Bene, Papar
To say the truth, I didn’t get to mangle around much with people. Most of the time, I slept. I felt that I was totally pampered. No ministry, no study… The only ministry is interpreting the Chinese sermon into English. Tough Job, anyway. That’s so wonderful to rest in the presence of the Lord. When I slept, I did not need to set alarm to wake up. The sisters will ring the bell to indicate that it was the meal time (breakfast, lunch, tea, dinner and supper). I just kept myself quiet and enjoy the nature, devote myself into the Lord. I spent much time with the STS lecturers and STS friends. They are really good people.

Psalms 133:1
“How good and pleasant it is when brothers live together in unity.”

My STS lecturers
I learnt one thing from the sisters. On Sunday night, it was 1am in the morning. Yet I saw the sisters still cleaning the house of the Lord. They really love the Lord very much.

Psalms 134
“Praise the Lord, all you servants of the Lord who minister by night in the house of the Lord. Lift up your hands in the sanctuary and praise the Lord. May the Lord, the Maker of heaven and earth bless you from Zion.”

I felt very touched when I saw them working passionately. In my heart, I thought, “May our Lord, Jesus Christ, bless you and remember your work.”

My STS friends
Before we left the place in the next morning, we thanked the sisters for taking care of us. The thing which touched me the most is that the sister said, “We actually prayed for you all before you all arrived in this place. We really ask God to give you all a successful and meaningful retreat.”

Indeed, that was the best retreat which I ever had among all these years of serving.

I find rest in the Lord

Chapter 30: Human Beings (Part II)

Human Beings are funny. It seems like everything they do, they are right. It happened to the family, school, friends, and even COUPLES! It applies from kids to elderly.

I do not understand why we, Human Beings, disgrace the image of God in this way. We supposed to have the image of God. However, human beings know they are wrong, yet they still choose to do it this way. Check it out!


When they laugh, they said it is a joke.
When others laugh, they said it is pathetic.

When they keep quiet, they said they are mature.
When others keep quiet, they said those are nerds.

When they make noise, they said it is called "Enjoy life!".
When others make noise, they said it is idiotic.

When they receive no love, they said others don’t love them.
When others receive no love, they said others don’t find them.

When they sin, they said “It is alright. God will forgive.”
When others sin, they said “It is nasty. Let God condemn them!”

When they gossip others, they said “This is the truth! I am not lying.”
When others gossip them, they said “Why can’t the people talk to me face to face? Scare?”

When they criticize others, they said "This is my comment. This is what I think."
When others criticize them, they said "Why can't they understand my feeling?"

When they are praised, they pretended to be humble, in heart, they said, "Well, Look at me! Who am I? Of course I'm good."

When they are jealous about others who are better than them, they said, "I have a friend who is better than you. If you compare with him, you surely lose."

When they found someone who is talented, they said, "So what? I can do better than them."

When people are weary, they said "Ah ya! Your life is nothing, man! My life is ten times more pitiful than you."

When people are tired of life, they said, "Well, I am also like that. Do you think you are the only one?"

Readers, I have thousands of examples to share. You know what I mean... No wonder Jesus needs to take away our sin by dying on the cross for us.

Human beings are WEIRD.

Chapter 29: Human Beings (Part I)

Human Beings are indeed weird. You will never know why life is so weird even if you have God in your life. Sometimes we will ask, “Why do people such as these exist in this world?”


Those people are around us everywhere. You will agree with what I said. Here it goes:

They want encouragements,
yet they discourage others.

They want compliments,
yet they insult others.

They want praises,
yet they criticize others.

They want attention,
yet they ignore others.

They want love,
yet they don’t love others.

They want care and concern,
yet they don’t even bother about others.

They do not want to be lonely,
yet they leave others alone.

They do not want to be neglected,
yet they only look into their own interests.

They do not like people to back stab them,
yet they do this to others.

Readers, well, you know what I mean.
In conclusion, what can I say? This is what I called Human Beings. One word to describe about Human Beings,

Weird

"Human Beings (Part II)", coming soon.

Chapter 28: Hebrew Language

I have been attending a Hebrew Language class. I thought Jack’s Stuff only learns Cwalk, now he even learns Hebrew Language! Crazy man! If you can read the Hebrew words in the picture below, you are crazily fantastic!

My Hebrew Oral Exam... (Gosh!)

As we were listening to History of Hebrew, Hebrew is one of the earliest languages during Noah’s time. Hebrew Language is written from right to left. If we read the text from left to right, we will never understand the meaning. Most of the people might think Christianity is from the Caucasians. Before I am a Christian, I always thought the original language of the Bible is English. Christianity is originally from Jewish.

During the time of Noah, there was only one language. Yet now we have thousands of different languages in this world. How can it be?

Genesis 11: 1, 4, 8 - 9
“Now the whole world had one language and a common speech…
Then they said, ‘Come, let us build ourselves a city, with a tower that reaches to the heavens, so that we may have a name for ourselves and not be scattered over the face of the earth.’…
So the Lord scattered them from there over all the earth, and they stopped building the city. That is why it was called Babel (confused) – because there the Lord confused the languages of the whole world. From there the Lord scattered them over the face of the whole earth.”

Chinese language is also one of the earliest languages after the tower of Babel. Look at this word.


Genesis 7:13 tells us: "On that very day Noah and his sons, Shem, Ham and Japheth, together with his wife and the wives of his three sons, entered the ark."
How could the Chinese know about Noah having eight members in his family during the time of flood if they were not one of those people who were separated from Tower of Babel? Look again.

This is only one example. There are thousands more examples!

The books in Old Testament were written in Hebrew Language. Some of the books in New Testament were written in Greek; some were in Hebrew. Very interesting! The people of God in early days used Hebrew language to communicate with one another. I cannot believe that I am learning a language which our Lord, Jesus Christ used to speak when He was on this earth.

Doing my assignments while editing video clip for CWC