Chapter 120: Ibu's Teaching

She was satisfied with the video clip which I had done for her. That was an important clip for her. She needed to bring it back to Australia to show God's ministry in the work of the Filipinos throughout Sabah. I was touched by her passion for Jesus, that she had started to serve Jesus Christ at age of 20s. Until now, she has no regret serving Jesus.

After I had done the mission video clip for Canon Sylvia Jeanes, we had a long conversation. She began to ask about my situation. She could see that I was spiritually tired and depressed. "Worrying about your future, Jack?"

"Ya, Ibu. I need to be true to you. Actually I was still finding out who I am. Sometimes I was wondering who I am. And I seriously question whether God still be with me. Though I still worship God, I still praise God, I still love God, am I choosing the right way?"

She smiled at me, said "Jack, seriously speaking. You are a potential person with special gift from God. From the video clip which you had done for me and God, I truly witness that God has given you a very important gift which God will use it mightily in the future generation."

"Am I on the right track with God? Do you think God will bless my journey?" I continued to ask.

"Jack, no one will know except you and God. Let me figure it out for you. You said you do not know who you are right now? I should say you are trying to find a way to achieve your goal - the ultimate purpose for glorifying God in your life. You are still finding a way to break through, and accomplish what you desire to do for God. Currently, you cannot find it; therefore you are tired and depressed. I believe God will show you the way.

Jack, do not give up on what God has called you to do. You are not on the wrong path, as long as you fix your eyes on Jesus. You believe that this is what God has planned for you, go for it. No matter what people said about you, only you know. They will not understand. I said again, as long as you focus on God's kingdom, I am always supporting you.

I only worry one thing about you, Jack. As far as I concerned, I knew that you are worrying about money to stay survived. Believe in God, and never lose hope. Focus on God in every way you do. And God will provide what you need. As you can see right now, God has faithfully answered your prayer by giving you a camcorder. I am afraid that you may lose your vision because I believe right now you are in desperate of money. Remember that you do everything for God, showing good deeds, presenting Gospel to people, and focus on God, you will be guided by God.

Just as I said before, showing good deeds is one of the ways to reach out the lost souls. Through your video business, show your good testimony to others. Be the light of the world. As it was written in the bible 'let your light shine before men, that they may see your good deeds and praise your Father in heaven.' Jack, I am excited to see how God will use you in society. I earnestly bless you that God will lead you to where you desire to glorify God. May God bless you."

Hebrews 12:2
"Let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy set before him endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God."

Chapter 42: Please God or Men?

Continued from Chapter 41: Unacceptable Attitude

Readers, if you were me, can you stand those arrogant boys’ attitude? Do you feel disappointed when those people disrespect our God and show no reverence to our God?

On the same night, while I was helping out the Adult Alpha Course, there was an aunt asking me curiously, “Jack, why are you so fierce and strict to ASAA students? Are you scared actually?”

WHAT THE...? I'm scared?

Adult Alpha Course
Normally, when a person speaks loudly in public, it is because he wants to overcome his fear towards the people. However, this aunt got it all wrong. Am I scared?

Absolutely NO!!

Those, who are close to me, should know that I am not welcomed by many. I do not even care about my reputation especially when it comes to a stage where I have to stand firm in the presence of God. Am I here to please God or please men?

Galatians 1:10
"Am I now trying to win the approval of men, or of God? Or am I trying to please men? If I were still trying to please men, I would not be a servant of Christ."

That aunt, acting like a teacher, continued to said, “Jack, you should not speak so loudly. You should speak gently to those students. You will scare them away. These students are different. You need to deal them with love, gentleness and softness.”

I forgave her for she did not know the whole situation. Deal with gentleness and softness? Come on, man!
Are they still babies? Need me to spoon-feed them? It is because they are different, so I should rebuke them seriously. Even the Junior students are better than them.

ASAA Junior Students
Did she know that the senior students were sleeping while I was mobilizing Youth Alpha? Am I supposed to say gently, "Hello, everyone. Please wake up. Listen to me, please."

This is NOT CHILDREN CELL.

When I spoke loudly to them, does it mean I don’t love them? Indeed, it will not affect my emotion even if there are only 2 persons who attend the Youth Alpha. My task is to share the gospel. Even if there are only 2 persons, I will still share the gospel wholeheartedly.

Do you think I will feel very down and upset because the attendance is only 2 persons?

Of course not!

Think carefully!! If only 2 persons came to Youth Alpha, this shows that the Favor of God falls on these 2 persons.

How blessed are
those who hear and receive the gospels sincerely.

When you met this kind of situation and you know you will waste your time explaining the whole program (because you know they will not listen), is it wrong to speak loudly to get their attention?
I teach you!! If you face this in future, you should give them a strong and powerful rebuke.

To me, I have done my part sincerely. I, as a servant of God, represent God to promote His word (Youth Alpha) to people. Now who’s not listening? Can I control their mind? Even in the Old Testament, the prophets scolded and rebuked the people, do you think they will be welcomed by the people? Do you think they are loved by people? Do you think the people listen? When the prophets scolded and rebuked the people, does it mean they did not love the people?


Readers, Who likes to be scolded and rebuked by me? No one likes it! In fact, this is my true love to them. I tell you the truth. If I do not even rebuke those senior students, it means I do not care about their salvation. If they come to Youth Alpha, I will surely take it seriously to share the gospel to them.